When you close your eyes, close your ears to God's way, you will soon prefer your own ideas to the ideas of God. You come to a stage where your own evil seems to you good and God's good seems to be evil.
You would understand, even appreciate the queen’s choices when she was young, her sacrifices of self happiness, her duty of sovereign over families and private life and her transition from a girl to the queen, though she was still just a mortal.